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Sat Feb 21, 2009, 10:33 AM
today I had a self-esteem breakdown.
I did that thing where you apologise for all your past behaviour ever. I poured it out onto my best friend. I was a grey mess in need of assurance. he had to go due to lack of credit.

yesterday evening I saw a man kiss on QI. it was beautiful.
last night I was hungeehungeehungee* for music, each guitar-strum, drum-beat, voice-quaver shivered down my spine sending waves of ecstasy pulsing through me.
I had loads of ideas.
I dreamt that me and my best friend danced crazily and uninhibited to Radiohead.

*last night I was also just plain hungeehungeehungee in my belly. I snuck down at 11pm whilst my mum was outside with the dog and filled a bowl with oats, raisins and milk. the andrenaline made me dizzy and my stomach hurt. I didn't stop shaking for 10 minutes.

now I'm going to eat some pasta with too much bluddy cheese.

  • Mood: Anxious

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one of those days eh? dw i will be your shoulder to cry on if you ever need one, hugs come free too (:
pleassseee, lemme try your oats, raisins and milk! i know! bring them in on wednesday and we'll sneak downstairs to eat it at lunch. tom will probs think we've had one too many spliffs haha.
whats QI? and is your stomach better now?
radiohead is the bomb! and whats wrong with too much cheese?! im offended!

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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
:iconbobbyrtle:
thank you so much, you're too nice (:
haha, it was pretty geewwddd. ha, I bet Thom'd get all proud hippy on us for eating oats and stuff!
QI - on BBC2 on Saturday evenings. presented by Stephen Fry, it's kind of a quiz but basically they just talk about loads of random unknown facts like what rhymes with orange and stuff. haha!
my stomach is healed, yeeees, thank you :D
you like Radiohead??? I LOVE Radiohead. but my mum also does too, a LOT, so it's a secret that I like them.
and actually it was really good, the cheese added pazzzzazzz.
naw, I like cheese.

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:iconvibeviant:
lmfao that is so true! he does kinda turn into a hippy once in a blue moon.
ooh i know what youre on about... its on around 10/11ish right?
glad youre feeling better, i had stomach ache lastnight and sat on the sofa with a hotwater bottle haha.
and yesss, i love radiohead, bloc party, prodigy... anything really. muahahha! i know your dirty little secret hehe.
me too (: i have two packs of a mix of cheese in the fridge, they're kinda like a pick'n'mix

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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
:iconbobbyrtle:
he IS a hippy, I know it!
all that talk about radio masts melting your brain!
plus he lives in a hippy village and is friends with hippies [who I know}
actually, hippy is kind of the wrong word. it's like 'new age naturalist'-y people. people who are vegan and like nature and animals and peace and knitted jumpers.
it's so cool to have someone who likes music, and similar music to me!
I know, you can like blackmail me now.

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:iconvibeviant:
if you say so, he MUST be!
lmao, i loved the knitted jumpers park hehe.
what doya mean blackmail you? why? would i wanna blackmail you?! lol
x

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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
:iconbobbyrtle:
I don't know actually... to be your slave? I just mean you could, with the information that I like Radiohead, by threatening to tell my family.
haha, that sounds so silly!!

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:iconvibeviant:
oooh. now you're just giving me ideas! you shouldnt have told me that! haha.
p.s. in the previous comment, i mean part, not park lmao. seriously, have you ever heard of a knitted jumpers park!? x

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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
:iconbobbyrtle:
hahaha, I was getting a bit confused!
knitted jumpers park is conjuring up a strange mental image.

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:iconvibeviant:
yeah...its a bit like that car advert, where the city turns into a white fluffy city, except for the car lmao. x

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i cannot cry, because i know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh everyday of my life

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